The last 2 weeks have been emotionally rough. My ex is trying to extort money out of me. He has tried numerous ploys and I have proven him stupid. Like he says I owe him for our tax return of 2007. But I have the canceled checks to prove him wrong. He tried to tell me we owe the IRS 9,200.00 plus penalties and interest. Called the IRS. He might owe but I don't and our tax returns filed together don't. Then he decided to bring up a dark dirty little secret I have. I have spoken of this to no one in 27 years. But of course he knows about it because he was there. I fully intended to take the knowledge to my grave. But oh no, my creepy cruel ex is trying to use that to extort money from me. So I had to sit my husband down and say the words out loud and hope he didn't want to divorce me. Since I will not pay the ex-pig any money I have to tell people. Maybe this is why I am an over eater. I have been sitting on this for so long. Then in between the ugliness with my ex, my aunt dies. A truly wonderful woman who is only 13 years older than me. This is just sadness and depression flowing thruough me.
My husband was understanding and someday I will have to talk to the rest of my family before the pig does. My phone is shut off so he can't call me so I expect he is calling everyone I know.
My eating has been frenzied thru this last week. It is emotional turmoil eating. I am fully aware I am doing it. I even talk to myself why I am doing it and can't seem to stop. The only tiny consolation is I didnt have much food around me to go crazy with. So I had 3 of the small peanut butter cups. I don't even really like them. My husband wants me to lose weight but he is the one that brings the junk into the house. for the most part I don't. I am going to have to talk to him about that. we have a huge bag of small peanut butter cups and I think they should go to work with him on Monday.
Yesterday we had a big meal. It is only my husband and me but he like all the fixings. I didn't buy toomuch for him this year. I got a ham and a few potates and sweet potaotes so we wouldn't have the food for days. For next week at work, I am going to try to go back on the HCG diet I tried earlier. I bought light popcorn so I could keep my calories low but feel like I am eating something. I don't think depriving myself is going to help. Our new fridge came today and that should help with the over eating too. It is much smaller that the old one so I will have to keep my grocery list down to what we need for the coming week.
On a personal development note I have been trying to get back into my Bible study routine. I downloaded my Bible onto my e reader so I can always have it on the train with me.
That's all for now.